Drat. Drat! I feel like a heel. Last night, on the way to get more coffee, I found KOS-MOS wandering around the B2 deck near the A.G.W.S hanger. I should have realized that she wouldn't have put herself in her maintenance bed under the non-combat behavior term structure that her OS sets out for her. I guess.....I've just- gotten so used to her taking the initiative on certain issues. She made arrangements to get herself recharged, refueled, uploaded, downloaded, and just about everything else. She's only really needed me for maintenance, refitting and rearmoring.
I've gotten used to thinking of KOS-MOS not as a robotic OS, but as just KOS-MOS, herself. I find myself more and more wondering if she'll be okay with things I've decided for her. If she hurts, or feels- well, anything, really. Then again, if I feel that way about her, I should be glad, right? After all, I AM trying to encourage her to develop her own personality- likes, dislikes, feelings.
But I- I can't decide. When I react to something with a thought like, "Will KOS-MOS like it?" is it because I know KOS-MOS will have an opinion about it, or because I hope
she'll have an opinion about it? Am I simply a good observer, or is it just wishful thinking on my part? And (to continue with the dratting above) are my hopes and observations causing me to be neglectful of KOS-MOS in some way? I can't help but yell at myself a little.
1. My assumption that she would handle her own rest cycle might have caused a potentially serious accident with the hardware i.e: KOS-MOS reaction time down from lack of upload/recharge time. 2. She must have been lonely down there by herself. I should have made sure she was okay before going about my own business.
My responsibilities to her don't simply end at the line of a concientious scientist. I- she's my friend.
....it's no good pulling my hair out about it now. Next time, I'll be more careful. On both fronts. As to the rest- I just don't know. I'll handle it when it comes up. Right.
More news on the Great Retrofitting Debate: Latest email from Second Division hinting at need for foot upgrade attributable to planned increase in height. As result, am focusing on larger foot design, instead of smaller.
Tried to request upgrade plans from Second, only to be denied by Director fussing about classified plans on civilian channels. Honestly! You'd think the man never heard of a firewall. Bunnie can handle any Gear hack. When I get to Second Division headquarters, will read all plans. Despite Director.
Still being discreetly hinted at that new helmet designs can be pretty much deleted, as new helmet not part of future Second design. No helmet? I really
need to see those plans. This whole secrecy thing regarding retrofit starting to get on my nerves.
Whew. I've just realized what might be the biggest benefit to having a journal- someone to talk at when I'm feeling frustrated. I do feel better having gotten it out. Thanks.
Off to go fetch maintenance log to finish foot upgrade File #12